every one of you that lacks confidenced

every one of you that feels judged 
not by your character but
because of your weight, the color of your skin, your economic status, your religious creed, your gender


i will be your friend

i am here for you
you can sit with us

(Source: mariainesgul)

fear + wonder

i’m everything but paralyzed with apprehension, trepidation. 

gripping tightly my connection to what has become the past. the feelings, the deep understanding, the nonverbal communication. 

have you ever known someone down to the darkest part of their soul? and every crevice of their most beautiful? really known them. it is so difficult to walk away from a bond so wrought with nuance. i never want to not have that. i want that forever. 

but………. 

nothing is forever,

and i feel if i dont seize this opportunity i will regret it.

i need to just let go. and see what unfolds.

is it cheating yourself

to just “laugh it off” ?

i try. i really do. but when someone’s presence in your life is supposed to make you feel good and instead,

they continuously disregard your feelings, and then desperately try to meet your glance, searching for the “yea, its okay” eyes, 

where do you draw the line?

between remaining unswayed and “i just don’t need this anymore" 

?

MAY I REMIND YOU 

that I have migrated to a new blog. if you wish to see inside my genius mind ever again, go here++++++

ME

and

YOU

and

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will change lives

bonjour guys & dolls

if you enjoy seeing occasional things i post via your tumblr dashboard i highly recommend you saunter on over to +++THIS PAGE+++ because that is also me, and I will be phasing this fine lovely space, out.

remember i ruv you

sylsylsyl-blog-blog asked: well if you have any questions about San Diego, I can help you out with them! It's similar in price to Chicago, but you also have the ocean right there next to you, which is really rad! Surfing!
I don't know too much about Phx, so I'm not sure how it compares to SD, but there is def not as much going on compared to Chi. But it is really beautiful here, like everysingleday. I miss thunderstorms, though.

I will most definitely have some questions for you in the coming weeks/months. Woooooooo

sylsylsyl-blog-blog asked: So I am in San Diego, CA, right now. I did live in Chicago until last August, although I just went back two weeks ago to visit. What I miss most about Chicago is all the awesome food joints! Kuma's Corner, Handlebar, Cafe Kopi (Andersonville) were some of my fav go-to spots. San Diego has nothing -foodwise - on Chi-town. I also really miss biking on the Lake Shore Drive trail and actually, just anywhere speeding by traffic.
How do you like Phoenix and what brought you there? What are YOU missing about Chi?

woooooooow, what a SMALL world. I am in the process of deciding whether or not to move to San Diego! I’m in Phoenix because too many things were getting in my way in Chicago, I was working my ass off to pay bills, running in place. I have some family out here, its cheaper, so I’m able to put my ass through school. Phoenix is alright, but a HUGE change, and easy to outgrow. Hence why I’m both looking to move AND missing where I was.

Dude, missing food FOR SURE. I worked at Rosebud, want that, lived right by this cute little cafe, Milk & Honey, and I just miss being able to wander around all day doing whatever. Mario’s, Bongo Room, i can go on.